This was a reflection offered at the Salesian Community Mass, Nov. 19, 2017
The cliché about senior year being one of the most stressful times of one’s life so far cannot be more true. Between my mom asking me everyday if I’ve finished the 20 something supplementals for the twelve schools I'm applying to, to keeping my grades at an acceptable level, to sitting in my bed and stressfully watching Netflix, trying not to think about the quiz I have to study for in Dr. Pennybacker’s anatomy class tomorrow, to making sure that our final performance runs smoothly this afternoon and all our hard work and sleepless nights pay off, it’s hard to find time to think about anything else except what I’m caught up with in the moment.
But I also think that’s the beauty of this time. This final year has given me an opportunity to look back on everything that I am so grateful for: Late nights up with my mom frantically trying to turn in my Common App essays even though the site seems to have crashed and I realize I couldn’t do any of this without her; Taking notice of my dad’s pep talks and how I won’t have a chance to hear them face to face next year when I’m away at college on the verge of throwing my textbooks across the room; The support of my Visitation friends and knowing that I have such a large support system from these beautiful, amazing people in my life who will always be there for me.
The quote from Francis de Sales this month is “Of ourselves we are nothing, all that we have and all that we are come from God." All I have to do is look around and I can see that everything, all those petty annoyances and stresses, melt away to reveal all the wonderful things that come with them. I can see little glimmers of God in every single one of my friends when they give me a hug on a bad day, or in my mom when she makes my favorite dinner or turns up Taylor Swift’s new album in the car to make me feel better, all of these things make me realize how grateful I am to be here today surrounded by such a loving community of people.
And as for the play and our final performance today, the pure exhaustion and stress about the show has brought everyone together this week, I made so many friends with people I never would have gotten the chance to talk to if it weren’t for this. And for that I am very grateful.